I'm Back!!!

Assalamu'alaikum....

Halo...

I'm back!!
After all my test, now I'm back!!

Anyway...test semester akhir nggak gitu sukses...I got remidial test for Biology. Huhu...I'm crying...
Yah...I'm sure that God has the better plan for me about that.
I know...inilah statistiknya :

Bio : remidi
Geo : free
Eko : free
Fis : remidi
Kim : free
Matik : free
Religion : free
Mandarin : free

That's the recent results. Yang lain belum diumumin...moga ja nggak nambah lagi...n semoga bisa tetep masuk IPA meskipun nilai IPAku begitu rucnahnya...kan di pelajaran sehari-harinya aku better. It doesnt matter about the final result, but how we get it, right?!

Tapi, ada sesuatu yang membuat semua terhapus...bentar lagi mau outbound...!!!

Outbound, outbound, teman-teman...

Hal yang entah bagaimana bisa mengobati rasa sakit karena remidial test Bio itu...aku awalnya nggak boleh ikut gitu sama ortu, tapi setelah ngebujuk-bujuk sambil cium-cium pot kesayangan Mama (nggak ngaruh, sih! Yang ada bibirku jadi jontor!)...aku boleh ikut...

Ngebayangin sunset di Teleng Ria sambil duduk-duduk di pasir sama anak-anak satu sekul...i'm gonna like it...apalagi bareng 123...

Aaargh!! I'm hoping it so bad...

Danke, Herzliche Grüβe!
*LuvlyR*

Science Project Time

I'm in the next competition again...

My JHS's friend said :

"You look like a competition lover!"

Yah,well...I knew that. It seems like I'm an ambitional person...but sometimes we have to be, right?!

And it seems more difficult than ever. I have to join two competition in a time! Wow! I have to work under the pressure of my principal's andhave to give the spirit for my ownself about the target...!

I MUST FINISH TWO SCIENCE PROJECT THIS MONTH!!

Wanna change your life with mine??

Oh, no! Plus one more! I must finish my novel project next month too!

God, give me that sincerity...I know You are always blessing and watching my way...

Danke,
Herzliche Grüβe!

123 was A Hard Memories to Leave…

I was so messed-up today…

My remedial test for Economy and my test for Math, were so difficult today…hhh…but I did it pretty good. And I did some cheat for my math test, stealing my friend’s answer…(oh, no!)

Ok, I’ll tell you about the main topic for this post…

123!!!

I was confused by him. This morning, Si Beib, gave me a book. A-kinda poem, written there…

First, I thought that was a poem for his beloved-girl which live in Blitar, but…

No way!!!

123 wrote that poem!! Actually, that’s not a poem, but that was a song lyrics. Love song lyrics. I don’t know what was he supposed to mean with that song lyrics...and either what was Si Beib supposed to mean…gave that song lyrics to me…

????????

Hhh…but I’ve become more confuse with my own-feeling about 123. I want to forget him, but I just can’t get over him…though I’ve tried so hard to…

Did I fall too deep for him that I can forget him?

Well, it’s not that easy, indeed…to forget someone you love with all the memories included…it will hurts you…even when you are in your strongest moment.

I love him, I do…but with all these pain and hurt left, could I stay any longer?

Once again, I will announce it:

I do love him…

But does he love me too? I’m not a beautiful girl that a boy could ask for, I’m just a girl…ordinary girl…

Am I foolish that I can't get over him??

Herzliche Grüβe!
*SLH*

Silent Week

Aku sengsara minggu ini ternyata…!!!
Sama sekali nggak ada interaksi apapun sama 123. Yah, seharusnya aku bisa terbiasa dengan hal itu. Secara, dia emang orangnya cuek bebek setengah mampus. Dia bener-bener orang tercuek yang pernah aku temuin!

Aku disampingnya…
Dia diem…
Aku di depannya…
Dia diem juga…
Aku dibelakangnya…
Dia cuman nengok sekilas gitu aja…

Hhhhh…

Capek-capek-capek-capek…!!!

Aku capek sama semua keadaan-menunggu-disapa ini…aku capek sama semua keadaan cuman bisa ngelihatin bagian belakang kepala dia kalau dia duduk di depanku…aku capek sama semua lirikan mata dia tapi nggak pernah mau ngomong…aku capek…bener…aku capek…banget…

Kenapa sih dia segitu cueknya sama aku…
Aku kan kelihatan…bukan hantu yang bisa diignore seenaknya…

Ini emang kayak udah jadi siklus gitu.
Seminggu sebelumnya, dia bener-bener intens ngedeketin aku…
Seminggu kemudian, dia bener-bener nyuekin aku seolah aku ini cuman lantai yang selalu diinjek tapi nggak pernah dipel (lho?)
Begitu seterusnya…berulang-ulang…over and over again…

Aku capek…beneran, deh…
Sampai pengen nangis…

Iya, sih…kadang aku pikir apa yang temen-temenku bilang tentang 123 ada benernya juga :

“Dia bukan apa-apa kamu, jadi kamu nggak bisa marah juga ke dia kalau dia kelewat cuek, Maz…”

Memang iya, sih…tapi kan kenapa dia nggak bersikap biasa aja, sih…nggak usah sok diem-dieman gitu ke aku…ngobrol aja sewajarnya kayak temen biasa…kenapa dia selalu malah jaga jarak di satu waktu, tapi bener-bener melebur jarak di lain waktu…

Kan aku jadi mikir dia itu ada apa-apa sama aku…

Seperti Kamis kemarin, waktu anak-anak OSIS plus non-OSIS yang bakalan diutus testimoni ke SMP 1 lagi rapat, aku telat masuk ruangan rapat dan tempat dudukku yang biasa diisi sama Mr.ahli-curhatku. Ya udah, akhirnya aku duduk di sebelah Raf, satu sofa sama Raf.

Eh, terus pas udah bubaran rapat, Mita bilang,

“Eh, eh! Tahu, nggak? Pas kamu tadi naro pantat di sebelah Raf, 123 ngelihatin terus sampai bengong…mulutnya kebuka dikit gitu…merhatiin kamu banget… . Teruz, pas kamu ngobrol sama Raf tadi, yang pas kamu narik-narik lengen baju Raf, dia ngelirik sengit gitu ke kalian berdua… ”

Nah, kan? Itu maksudnya apaaaa????? Aaarrghh…!!!!

CAPEK!

Aku pengen banget nangis capek, nangis jengkel dan nangis sebel…
Tapi nggak bisa…dia bukan siapa-siapa aku…not even my boyfriend…yet…

Aku pengen protes dan nanya ke dia, kenapa dia begitu…
Tapi nggak bisa…nggak bisa…

Yang jelas aku capek banget sama semua ini…

Herzliche Grüβe!
LRSM.Louphe